NP:One Day…drowning with my tears
Missing home
Dying gasping for a LAST BREATH
I'm done asking for the fairytale.
I wish people would stop making me hope, because it just hurts too damn much.
Let me embrace the fate I know is mine...
maybe that is my path to happiness.
I wish I knew the statistics on how many people live and die alone. I can't help but think with my combination of looks and social anxiety, that God has designed me to be one of those people.
I have been trying my best to embrace this idea - the idea that I must live a totally happy and fulfilling life without ever finding someone to share my life with.
It's the most difficult thing I've ever tried to come to terms with.
Maybe i just dont deserve to be happy
Maybe i just ruins someones life
Maybe im the reason why they are having miserable life
Ive tried to be at my best
But they just remember the worst part of me
In the End they just realese my hand
Letting me walk alone to this shallow dark way of my life